The inevitable happened...I got the news today that I have another endometrioma, and a possible fibroid. What does this mean? Well it could mean hysterectomy, it could mean another painful laparoscopic surgery, it could mean worse, a tumor.
My OBGYN is out of town until next week, so I have to sit here and wait, and wonder why this is happening to me and Cory. Why is it that the one thing I have wanted my entire life, is possibly no longer an option? I sat at my desk trying to choke back the tears while reading my Ultrasound report....my co-workers knew something was up....tears fell from my eyes faster than I could catch them. I said, "I feel like I am being punished"....I said it out loud.....because I do. I try to not think that the choices I made in the past were wrong. I made them for a reason...I was not ready. But now I am, and now I can't.....
I try to think that there is a reason for things unfolding the way they are, but today I just want to curl up and cry for a baby I will never have.
